Absence

Close my eyes,
i breathe the world of the unknown.
Immediately, i was absent from the present,
I've sank into the familiar.

Willingly, I've let go of the moment.
The world of the unknown, my actual past.
The wind carried me to childhood,
a place so long ago.

Childhood yet it is.
Fly me far beyond childhood it is.
Embraced with love and much more love,
I reluctantly let go.

Embrace all my fears, my doubts i beg of you.
Allow my smile to shine like glory in the morning,
for my heart so absent,
my soul so departed.

In her

I don't wanna let them know who I am.
And so the explorer left her home called love.

No doubt she left but still believing love is oxygen.
No matter how torn her heart was she continued journeying into the new.

Little angels ,who once were her friends, turned into enormous devils.
A thousand tears dragged her smile.
A million fears creeped in her laughters.

She,who brought along make up to draw a smile.
She,who spoke fluently, shivers everynight.
She,who knows nothing.

There's always something in the way,
it's she,
herself.

It's understood, there's always something in the way...

That strong breeze

No chance to redeem myself.
Time rewinds me to the days,
the days where you were in my sight.

I feel your embrace every now and then.
I hold you in every beat my heart makes.
I can't stop to think you're a star so away far from me.

Making assumptions out of nowhere,
people just don't seem to find out the truth in my writings.
Like a little lamb lost in the woods,
i need assurance.

A you i mentioned where you don't know you are,
where you don't know you exist in me.

Not a need for replication,
a need to feel love.
Oh so my love, when will be here?

The early morn has driven me into blues,
that scourged my heart which's filled with the presence of...
only you.

Adieu

The clock that stopped ticking.
A moment considered done.
When will time be alive to bring me back to the day so filled with inexplicable happines?

Endless questions may seem to flow,
where would it flow?

A place i would be at,
an eternity with forever,
my home, my real home.

Surrounded by genuine faces,
genuine hearts.
Goodbye to the outside.

Triste

Softly, the wind blew away the blue to another place...
No more tears left in this side of the world,
gently, the trees shed their last leaf.
The world has just begun..

The blue has yet to come back again yet blown to some where far enough.
Heaven's busy,
the rain has yet to fall,
will heaven be crying soon?

My calm sense awaken and awaits magic.
Sober of what i ought to learn and give.
The wind needs to be back to blow me away.
Sun will then set in peace...

Never so sober yet drunk in what i have to face,
a beautiful end has yet to set in,
never would i mind the wait.

Soon, a true transformation,
will i be yearning for blues again?

Still

Reminiscing , yes i was.
But! Part of my all is all about you.
I couldn't help but think of the sudden change.

A good you transformed into a heart breaker.
Why am i still thinking about these?

Those words you said are incorrigible,
they are making me confused.

Heartless, i wouldn't say you, rather, indecisive.
I have thought through and will await the day when you declare silence from me no more.

I couldn't help but miss those days,
ain't a loser but life has do go on,
go on without you anymore.

Unopened

No rhyme or reason you went away.
Words that were left unsaid.
My heart still puzzled.

How am i suppose to react?
Wait for your call?
Wait for you to give a speech once more?

It's like a hit and run,
now who's the victim?
You or me?

Please don't leave me with doubts.
At least,
say you have gotten over me.

I wander about the lonely streets of doubts.
Where i wonder whether or not to wait for a conclusion,
a conclusion to sum up these feelings.

What's the use of apologizing when you haven't make a clear statement?
When will you draw the line ?
Will i be the one to cross over that line or will i be the one who walks away from it ?

Ignoring is just temporary,
I don't wish to ignore,
push me to face it with you.

You can hide but i will seek for you,
for the answer.
I just need that all so negative answer that soon will end this all,
harsh those words maybe ,
at least, it ends your miseries.

Unrecognized

Again, i was left out in the cold.
Stricken by insults of individuals i don't recognise.
Why is it always me ?

Innocent days were gone,
now left me with crude judgements.
Where is the peace that once lived?

Those pretty calming trees at that place,
the walks i used to take,
it seems like yesterday that it all disappeared.

Those insults , people , they are killing me softly.
Why do i have to cry inside?
Someone save me from these bullies.

These bullies who took away my poise,
my feelings,
my very soul.

Fear that rushes down to every step i take.
Stares that haunt me day and night.
Insecurity that sinks deep into my all.

That sunset

I wonder who created the sunset that reminds me of you...
Your absence has turned my feelings into Love, for you...
You are my second love...

First love was dead for me.
What do you remember of me?
My name? soul? or my heart?

When will i see you again?
I need you to cradle me with your love,
the least, your presence...

Days that go without you are like silence that fills the air.
Every sunset is a picture of you..
Every sunset makes me long to hold you...

Fated to meet,
not fated to love at all,
can we secretly love each other?

Those seashells,
I will wait for them...

I will wait for that sunset to bring me to you.
That sunset will be a place for me and you.
Remember that sunset....